My blood condition has been corrected. Thank God!
The next procedure is imminent- hysterescopic polypectomy.
My OB-GYNE, Dr. Arlene Bravo scheduled me last August 19 for the procedure. To cut the long story short, the procedure went well.
I was admitted 2:00 pm and was discharged by 9:00 pm.
Thank you, Dr. Bravo! Bravo talaga.
And thank you to Dr. Reyles, my anesthesiologist and one of our CSA parents as well, and Dr. Camille Espiritu, resident anesthesiologist and a former student of mine. :-) I am one proud teacher here. Imagine, my anesthesiologist was my former Grade 7 pupil?
After a week, I went back to Dr. Bravo for the result of the biospy test. Whew! She didn't hold back in disclosing the result.
Sadly, the polyps and the sample uterus lining were cancerous.
It's endometriod adenocarcinoma Grade II.
And it was dark once again..
My doctor referred me now to an OB-GYNE Oncologist.
He is Dr. Jay Arnold Famador.
I went to his clinic right after my consultation with Dr. Bravo.
Unfortunately, the secretary cannot accommodate me anymore because of the long line of patients waiting for him.
I will get to see him after four days.
I didn't leave the hospital yet. I wandered around.
My mind was going 150 kph and it's like a highway during rush hour. What to do? What to do? What to do? Many things and concerns flooded my mind.
Totoo pala yong nasa pelikula na pag nasabihan ka na may cancer ka talagang titigil pala ang mundo mo.
And in my case, it literally stopped.
I have no other information except the result of the biospy and thinking about it made me crazy.
After an hour of wandering around, I got out of the hospital, drove along Ayala Avenue, called a friend thru speaker phone and cried.
At that state of mind and condition I didn't know where to go, I can't go home to Malolos because I am not ready to face my relatives. I have no answers to the questions I am sure they're gonna ask. So I decided to go home to Mother of Life Center (MOL), sa tahanan ng Ina ng Buhay. This center has been a home to me since 1996.
Here in MOL, I grieved, I cried, I questioned, I kept silent, I prayed.
Dito muna ako nagmukmok pansumandali.
Dito muna ako nagsumbong, naglambing at umiyak kay Inang Maria, ang Ina ng Buhay.
That night, I joined the current students during their silent prayer in the chapel. Nobody knew the predicament I am in except the formators that time. In silence, I cried quietly. In silence, I began to suffer...
And it was dark once again...
I do not know what will happen next.
I will have to see the oncologist first.
My fate now is in God's hands.
All I can do is pray,
and believe that all will be well.
Lord, into your hands, I commend my body and spirit.
It is broken, bruised and in need of healing.
Lord Jesus, be my healer.
Wounded, sick, in pain
Dark night unfolds once again
Faith and hope impel
- At yan ang sabi ni Manang